“In truth you cannot understand the nature of My Reality, either today, or even after a thousand years of steady austerity or ardent inquiry, even if all mankind joins in that effort”
– Sathya Sai Baba
Sathya Sai Baba was an expert in making the above kind of proclamations to further his popularity. No doubt, his mastery in conning several hundreds of ignorant, unquestioning and faithful people is indeed commendable. He took on the garb of a God in human form and this in itself, kept people away from questioning. All logic dissolved when the entire atmosphere was filled with this thought that so and so wearing ochre robes was God himself.
Not only should his glory be known but also the glory of another – a common man at that (no tags of Avatarhood), who comprehended, this “unfathomable” Avatar and his “ways“ in a short duration of six months, let alone a hundred thousand years. This was possible only by mere observatory and analytical skill (also known as Vichakshana) of not the entire mankind, but the mind of a single man.
It was on the morning of the day of Shivratri, celebrated by him with great pomp and show having declared himself as Lord Shiva himself. He arrived in his white costume (which he wore on his birthdays and festival parties). I had already spent six months at the ashram and by now understood how he operated. I was also already indirectly warned not to investigate or converse with various people as detailed in my earlier post
I was seated in the 2nd row. His eyes met mine, and there was a sudden loss of expression in his face.
Again that evening, during his customary Shivratri day discourse, he interspersed his regular mythological stories with various insinuations to convince, hold and retain me. As is typical, Sathya Sai Baba offers a position in his institutions, an accommodation and free education for the individual’s kids (apart from the free child abuses)
With the realization I had of the dark activities and events, I had made my decision to return after vacating the premises. The next morning, Sathya Sai Baba, held an impromptu discourse (not recorded) and attempted a last round of convincing using Vedanta – that one must not pursue Heavenly position also referred to in mythology as Vaikunta and that the Atma alone is the Reality. He also added that he could do many things even without people’s knowledge, but revealed himself (aka his glory) only to win a person’s co-operation. He asked for total surrender and also used a threatening tone – all this translated by his right hand man – Anil Kumar.
Indeed, I follow his final advice to this day. My mission now is to grant sincere seekers of Truth, the reward for their sincerity and steadfastness – by putting an end to their imaginations about Reality and to the seeking process itself, since they seek that which is only a figment of their imagination – namely a loving God, perfect in all ways – a figure that Sathya Sai Baba tried to don. I have no desire for any heavenly position or a life of comfort. For if that was my goal, the easiest way was for me to surrender to him like any of his meek, subservient and ego-feeding, yes-men who run after him for the welfare of themselves and their families, expecting him to shower some riches or give away his used imported cars to them.
Deep introspection will throw light on the reality of this aspect of surrender that he called for – if one questions, the ones who surrender have a deeper craving to live and also live well. Where then is the detachment from life itself that he preached? Surrender to him, meant that the individual craves to live at the cost of those that do not – Preferential living.
Who surrenders to whom? What is there to surrender to? Indeed there is nothing at all – the root cause of this expectation was Sathya Sai Baba ‘s own ego- maniacal attitude, his craving for the position of the one and only, the king, beyond all laws.
I have not seen a fool any greater than He with respect to teaching anything that is useful to the world. ‘
Firstly, he termed life as nothing but Ahamkara and that only the Ahamkara is born and Ahamkara dies.
He then attempted to crush the ego of individuals and therefore the Ahamkara which is nothing but what he defined as life itself.
And lastly, he requested this Ahamkara (which is different from Himself, the all-pure) to acknowledge and accept that he was Godhead!! And when the individual already dead in spirit due to this form of teaching (torture?), walked away never to return, Sathya Sai Baba called these “Ahamkaras” as Judases, Demons and every other possible expletive.
Hence from the perspective of his explanation, it was important to “have” Ahamkara only to the extent enough to accept that another is Godhead and WHEREAS if one indeed had no Ahamkara, then he does not see another as different from himself and hence there was no scope for accepting or rejecting another as Godhead!!
I recount all of this only to say that the one, who positioned himself as the Lord of Lords, requested and begged this simple Brahmin (nothing more than an Ahamkara from his point of view), endowed with a supreme intellect, indomitable will, razor sharp memory and above all purity in thought and sincerity in action, virtues that are rare to find.
He wished that those with these kind of qualities joined hands with him, in order to project his image as a Dharmatma. He was always busy identifying whom to associate with in this “False Jagath” in order to prove himself or project one or another aspect of himself in positive ways.
My very own attributes alone enabled a complete understanding about him, the reality which he hid from the masses – every step he walked, every word he spoke, back in time, even before my very birth, I understand the reason and the manner in which he setup his empire.
It is with such an understanding that I declare to the world that their greatest mistake would be to even attempt to follow him or his teachings that smell of hypocrisy – teachings that served only to further his image of an Avatar, so that mankind would remember his name for generations to come. But in essence, his teachings were utterly useless for living life as it should be lived